The Crutcher family has a long history of OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder. Obsessions are unwanted, intrusive thoughts, images or urges that trigger intensely distressing feelings. Compulsions are behaviors an individual engages in to attempt to get rid of the obsessions and/or decrease his or her distress.
It seems to have surfaced on my fathers side of the family many generations ago. He told me years ago that his Aunt Helen had a hand washing compulsion because of her fear of germs. My sister, Julie, is obsessed with exercise, and a niece suffers from severe OCD and is on anti-anxiety medication. My own OCD surfaced when I was in college, and the way I dealt with my obsessions was to plan every detail of my life, leaving very little to chance. When things were in order, like the jelly beans in the picture above, I felt in control which lowered my anxiety. http://www.newhealthguide.org/Famous-People-With-Ocd.html
Well, when Huntington’s disease entered by life, I was thrown into a tizzy because, guess what, HD is not a force to be controlled! My planning strategies were thrown out the window because of John’s unknown gene status, along with his three sisters. With the strong bond and deep love John and I shared, we drew strength and clung to each other which calmed my OCD. As I accepted the fact that I couldn’t control everything in my life, and that wasn’t easy and took years, I learned to overlook shortcomings and to compromise, to let go of anger, to find joy in the simple things.